The Vision

It's true... I have visions, some are clear and others.. not so much.  This is unclear.. I hate the unknown... I pray we overcome

1 month anniversary

Aww I wake up today with the sweetest message at 12am....  wishing a happy 1 month.. It's so sweet.. I'm so inlove.. ok Need to stop giggling now.  I need to remember I'm HOOD!!! .  PEACE.

I Love YOU J.

The Magic words were finally said, one would never think that I would be in this place  so soon and ever again.  I'm inlove. It all happened on the 4th of August 2012 at 5:10am.  I meant every word of it,  I could not hold it back. I felt so clear, it felt so right, and with those beautiful big eyes and sparkling smile I could not help but say it. 

My heart was beating so fast and my voice shook as I whispered loudly "I love you".  I prayed to God everyday to send me the ONE, and he listened and heard my prayers.

My Life is Private

I always keep my life very private... I promise to keep this relationship too.. Private...
Like Jay and Bee :)

J

July 21st 2012 at 11:15pm, it finally happened...

On saturday July 20th, we met up and went to see the movie "Dark Knight" .  Scared stiff about the shooting that happened in Aurora Colorado the day before, we braced ourselves and went.  It was an awesome movie, it felt so right being together.  We left and I had to run home to run some errands, I get a message saying "there is something I needed to speak to you about".  Being the analytical person that I am, I thought of everything possible under the sun.  But I kinda hoped for the best..  July 21st, we both met up and went for Rib Fest, with my besties.. met up with some other friends.  Had a great time.  They finally met the one I call my "heart String"

Night came, we went home..  at exactly 11:15pm..as we looked into each others eyes..
me:  what did you want to talk to me about
Heart String: I was thinking we became exclusive
me: I agree, I would love that
Heart String: But of course I know we have to take it slow
me: I don't want to take it slow
Heart String:  Ideally I would like you to be my boy friend
me: I want that too
Heart String:  Would you be my boy friend?
me:  ***HEART POUNDING SO FAST****
me:  *** went in for the kiss so passionately***  (I've never kissed anyone like that ever before)
me: YES
It finally happened..  We decided to make it official..

TIME WILL TELL

Yesterday...  as we cuddled together, it felt like time stood still.. could we really be made for each other.. could there be a possibility for a relationship?  hmmmm.. I guess that's both our thoughts.. It feels so right.  But time will tell..  I'm starting to grow a strong like-ness and fondness.  It's been a while since I've had such a connection with someone. TIME WILL TELL

Butterflies..

I feel complete.. Butterflies... I can't stop thinking of you

TIME~ It is a heart string

My heart is cleansed, the change came hard.  I felt every muscle twitch like an orgasm.. the beautiful notes poured out as it played my heart string.  Feeling so beautiful inside, a warm feeling like never before.  It only comes very few and far in between.  I've longed for this day, a beautiful spirit has blessed me with its presence. I know one day I'll understand, now it's just a blur. A cloud of thoughts, a beautiful heart string, a cold summer night.
Here alone in my bed I lay, wishing you were here.  I know it is time. it is TIME

The Thursday Mood

I'm in such a mood today, it's funny how I created this blog to talk about fashion, lifestyle and beauty. But turning into my personal diary.. I was in such high spirits until I missed the train this morning, which forced me to drive to work and God knows I hate doing that.  The traffic is aways Horrible in the morning, so I cursed every driver that tried to get in my lane. I need a chopper, I need to see to it.. that happens.. I can't be doing this traffic thing anymore. lol. But really though I need to get out of this mood like quick and fast.

The Rain Came Down

It's the 1st of June, thrilled at the fact that it's a new month. Waking up to the rain is something I absolutely love, I call it my cuddle weather.  But of course I had to go to work, that's our signature of independence.  Sometimes I just want to say #icant,  I don't want to be independent anymore it's so much work.  But I have to, I have to prove to myself that I can do it, I would like to build my empire and achieve amazing success in all I've planned to do.  The rain to me metaphor that best describes an obstacle you have to face to get where you need to be.  You could be wet but also remember, you will become dry again.  The rain doesn't fall forever.  I love the "rain" it pushes me to go harder, faster and become stronger.

But it's friday, and come the night I'll be alone again.. Alone with my thoughts.. no one to cuddle with. Maybe I should get a puppy...

Bring me to Paris

We all have our happy place.. now where that might be is the question.  Some of us it's all about the location, the presence of that special someone, the gym.  Mine is somewhere I go to when I need my space.. It's "Paris".  Not Paris France.  Paris is in my head! It's where I go and block off every worry, every pain and everything that causes me to think.  I day dream of the beautiful things I want to do in my life, where I would like to be.  My true love...  I day dream about meeting my mother for the first time in 8 years, what that moment will be like.  I haven't seen her since I moved to Canada, some people might say I'm crazy and how have I been able to do it? but we are always intouch.. daily.  My happy place lets me be my true self, my controlled dreams also reminiscing of the good times I've shared with amazing people or places I've been. 

Something Changed

It's been a long time since I've been on here, to be honest I forget I have a blog.  The reason is my life has been turned around in such a crazy way since after graduation, *** that I did not attend* lol..  My schedule has become so packed that I hardly have time for myself.  But I was able to squeeze in time for a little vacation for memorial day weekend.. I was in the gorgeous Miami Florida, I stayed at the Hilton downtown. 

It was a 2 day getaway, that I wished would have been longer.  I met so many amazing people that I thought to myself "why am I single"???  I get that question a lot from so many people, but to be honest there are reasons.. not just one.  I've always been told that I'm "too high maintenance" or "have high standards".  But really what are high standards?   Because I drink out of a wine glass instead of a plastc cup?   or Because I drive a mercedes? or Because I would not stay in a 2 star hotel only do 4 and up.?  

They are really all material things, I believe I've earned it because I can afford it.  I was brought up and I am accustomed to a certain lifestyle.

But here is the twist.  Love holds no barriers.. I only want someone that has a vision and a dream, ambitions and is willing to LOVE with their heart not their body.  I've tried to accomodate or date people from different works of life, I still feel nothing. I always said that once you know... YOU KNOW!!!!

Why am I saying all this?  I met someone.  This is premature, YES.. because it was only last weekend.  But the feeling in my heart is so different.  Now my friends will say "here you come again, they are always different"   but this time is different.   As usual I end up being fond of or having a crush on someone that is in a totally different country than I am.  It's a plane ride away, or even two plane rides.  And I HATE Flying, even though I'm on a plane a lot. But someone once told me " I've accepted the fact that my prince charming might not be in the same country as I am".  And it's true, who ever is right for you might really not be.

I'm not willing to settle for just what's in Canada, I want more.  I want the real deal, the truth.  The ONE.  I've been waiting for all my life, but sometimes I fear I'll never find LOVE.   I have so much to give and share, that I often share with the wrong ones.

Something changed when I became 25.  I just wanted more for myself, I left behind the baggage that I should not be carrying.  I've always been a poised and controlled person, now I'm even more controlled. But with the right people I let lose.

I love myself.. I love the Lord and I love my family and friends.  I want to love another!!!