Something Changed

It's been a long time since I've been on here, to be honest I forget I have a blog.  The reason is my life has been turned around in such a crazy way since after graduation, *** that I did not attend* lol..  My schedule has become so packed that I hardly have time for myself.  But I was able to squeeze in time for a little vacation for memorial day weekend.. I was in the gorgeous Miami Florida, I stayed at the Hilton downtown. 

It was a 2 day getaway, that I wished would have been longer.  I met so many amazing people that I thought to myself "why am I single"???  I get that question a lot from so many people, but to be honest there are reasons.. not just one.  I've always been told that I'm "too high maintenance" or "have high standards".  But really what are high standards?   Because I drink out of a wine glass instead of a plastc cup?   or Because I drive a mercedes? or Because I would not stay in a 2 star hotel only do 4 and up.?  

They are really all material things, I believe I've earned it because I can afford it.  I was brought up and I am accustomed to a certain lifestyle.

But here is the twist.  Love holds no barriers.. I only want someone that has a vision and a dream, ambitions and is willing to LOVE with their heart not their body.  I've tried to accomodate or date people from different works of life, I still feel nothing. I always said that once you know... YOU KNOW!!!!

Why am I saying all this?  I met someone.  This is premature, YES.. because it was only last weekend.  But the feeling in my heart is so different.  Now my friends will say "here you come again, they are always different"   but this time is different.   As usual I end up being fond of or having a crush on someone that is in a totally different country than I am.  It's a plane ride away, or even two plane rides.  And I HATE Flying, even though I'm on a plane a lot. But someone once told me " I've accepted the fact that my prince charming might not be in the same country as I am".  And it's true, who ever is right for you might really not be.

I'm not willing to settle for just what's in Canada, I want more.  I want the real deal, the truth.  The ONE.  I've been waiting for all my life, but sometimes I fear I'll never find LOVE.   I have so much to give and share, that I often share with the wrong ones.

Something changed when I became 25.  I just wanted more for myself, I left behind the baggage that I should not be carrying.  I've always been a poised and controlled person, now I'm even more controlled. But with the right people I let lose.

I love myself.. I love the Lord and I love my family and friends.  I want to love another!!!